And u think u've concluded it all
Dec 20, 2008 And i sang all night..letting the music carry me,hopefully away from the world that i am in.
But its a strangely hollow feeling. One minute,u think u are tough and all pain can be absorbed and letted out without even being noticed.
The next minute, u feel shitty, u feel as vulnerable as an ugly ducking being lost in an overpopulated city in the winter, without ur shoes and clothes.
Yeah, exactly, that is the feeling i feel now. Cold, painful,shameful,alone,shivering,.my soul is lost somwhr away from the body,only slightly attached to the finger tip. One careless sneeze might mean i would be a souless person forever. But that is how easy it is to fall into a blackhole that has no end.
The next minute u think, what the heck. Why am i feeling shitty when the end of something bad should mean the beginning of something nice? and the u realize, comforting words have always been overrated. when u are sad, U ARE SAD. No matter what others tell u , u dun cheer up right away. U indulge in the sorrow, and cry and cry and cry...
n then u laugh. n then u cry. n then u wonder what you are, and what it is all really about.
--Posted by Michelle-- 12:53 AM 
